No Problem

what if there's no problem?

what if I like to move fast towards the train, feeling the exhilaration that there's something to run for, to run toward, the blood pumping, the heat rising, my feet and legs and body all moving together to go fast?

what if there's no problem?

what if I like the activities of my work so much that I get excited to go to work, excited to accomplish the tasks there? what if I like doing the tasks I'm asked to do, what if they draw out my skill and mastery, expanding my self-awareness of what I'm good at and what I bring to the table. what if I like the urgency and enthusiasm, the breakneck speed of some moments of activity, when the deadlines are close and there's more to do than there's time for but we go for it anyway with gusto and joy?

what if there's no problem?

what if we're all doing our best - and it's really good enough - even when there's disappointment or wanting more? when there's anger and frustration at not always having what we want, and we blame one another for withholding or getting in the way of our desires? when our love looks like tolerating others' negative feelings about us, and there's nothing to do but show up and be present for each other in the discomfort? what if it's hard and challenging and activating and clarifying, rubbing up against our systems in ways that make us sore but wake us up? 

what if there's no problem?

what if our not talking very much gives me permission to exist comfortably without constant explanation? what if the moments of silence - while unfamiliar and surprising - are a longing of my soul that I'm learning to rest into and luxuriate in? what if there's freedom in new territory, invitation in relationship, welcome in being able to coexist without speaking?

what if there's no problem?